Guess who got a trainer???

ME,ME oooo Pick MEEEEE!!!

Hello Tuesday!! I'm still really struggling with what happened this weekend and me eating bad food for myself. When clearly I knew better, I have goals, goals I'm so incredibly serious about hitting! I didn't even kill my drive, I honestly feel like my drive is that much more to see a loss this week even if it is only -.1.

Last night I slept so awful, it's the worst sleep I have had since Gavin was a newbie and we were learning to breastfeed. I didn't fall asleep until 3:30 am and even then I was seriously up every 30 minutes. It's like my brain just wouldn't shut the hell off... I was so pissed. I was so annoyed that at like 6 am when Eric accidently touched my foot while he was getting ready for work, I flipped shit on him because I had just fallen asleep. It was an awful night of sleep. I've been so worried about this stupid weight gain that I swear I think about it all day. I feel awful and I'll tell you all about what my trainer told me today on how I'm slowly going to get over what I did this past weekend.

I woke up to the most amazing man, leaving the sweetest note ever. Remember the other day when I said he doesn't show his emotions? Guess who totally made me eat my words this AM?? Yup, you got it: Eric!! Y'all he's my best friend and knight in shining armor for a real reason.

Excuse the giant pink word, I used it to weigh-out for a diet bet! (I won!!)

So 9:30 am was my appointment with my trainer. He's super nice and y'all he tried to be soo sweet when he was weighing me. He put the scale (old fashion real one) on 150 and then went to go up. I was like really? He was like sorry I know women get offended so I don't want to offend you. I was like yah, your going to need to go at least 100 more pounds on that. I wish I was in the 100 group! Not yet buddy! He laughed and was like your super honest about this. I asked him what I had to hide? So we went through a bunch of workouts, he told me what to expect, that he would weigh me and do my measurements on the 15th of every month or sooner if I'm feeling discouraged. He also told me something I see a lot, that has probably made me not worry about this weight gain so much. He told me "I always tell my clients to not worry about the scale, at some point you'll hit a plateau, the scale won't budge but hey how do your clothes fit? I bet they fit better and if they do then you are doing all you have too...Fuck the scale, listen to your body and clothes, they tell the real truth." I swear from that moment on I was like fuck it if I gain 2, 3, or however many pounds this week. I already had to buy smaller workout clothes because mine were too big. Who cares the number on the FUCKING scale. I feel amazing, look at how far I've come in almost 3 months. 27 pounds gone forever like who the hell am I? I eat chicken, people fucking chicken for almost EVERY single meal! That never happens. Just ask Eric who proofreads this....

But, back to my trainer session. So we went through a bunch of workouts to determine how much I can lift now and taught me about the machines that I didn't know how the hell worked. Y'all, he made me do crunches....enough said right?? After that we went to a machine and he entered all my stats and out popped a little paper that gave me my workout for the day. He made sure to remind me about a thousand times that even if he's just there working out and not working for the gym and I have a question to not worry about asking. If I need help with any type of exercise he would be sure to help me. He was seriously so awesome!

My workout for today. I do 1 hour of cardio

regardless of what the machine says to me!

I couldn't believe in like 15 minutes I seriously lifted that much weight.

I was shocked to say the least!!

Today I didn't get to get in my normal 1 hour of cardio because this took like 45 minutes, so I only got in like 20 minutes. I did an incline at 9 for a mile to get a good sweat going and y'all I was sweating like a pig....

I can't wait to go back tomorrow and see what he has planned for me! I swear it's like gym Christmas every day! Also just a side note, I'm changing my weigh-in days to Sunday AM. I feel like if I change to Sunday's, then at least I'll keep my shit in check on Saturday when I tend to feel like I need to eat junk the most!

TMI WARNING BELOW!!!

One more quick thing, I know so embarrassing for the little guy. I'm such an awesome mom! We are slowly trying to get Gman potty trained! Today we pooped in the POTTY!!!! I was so excited we high fived like a million times and fist bumped!! I love that little guy so much! Kaity is good, just super obsessed with play dough right now, she would play with it all day if I let her!

Hey I need some form of blackmail when he's 18! At least his boy parts aren't out for the world to see!!

I hope y'all had a kick ass Tuesday. Whatever you did, I hope it was just as amazing as you are!! Tomorrow is hump day so make it a good one, get a workout in and remember.....

"The scale doesn't matter, it's how your clothes fit that really counts!"